HURT

My feelings were hurt very badly today not sure if it was due to the words said for if they were cause from who they came from!!! My 19 year old cousin who might as well be my little brother.. My parnets raised him for the most part, has for some reason strayed from my parnents raising and reverted to something his own family would do!!! We have a family friend Ronnie who married a much much younger woman who is in this country on a VISA, I am told that everyone told him not to mess with her she was bad news she was too young for him and it would just turn bad...So fast foreward to now like 6 years later....TT is in her 30's and Ronnie is in his 50's They start to having problems and some how not sure right now ( if i thought about i am sure i could rememeber how or why) My cousin Matt and TT start hanging out very very innocent at 1st and then more and more questionable.... Then one night when TT was to be house sitting she had come over here (matt use to live with us) and hung out i woke up at 3am to find her still here and them sleeping in his bed... Well unknown to me Ronnie was heading over to another family friends house to go hunting and drove past our house and saw his wifes car in front of our house... So he pulled in and felt the hood and it was stone cold... So he went on hunting and then when he came home from hunting questioned her and asked her why she was there she 1st said oh i just got there, Then he said TT dont lie your hood was stone ass cold you stayed the night, so then she proceded to tell him Well me and ASHLEY were watching movies and i fell asleep hanging out with ashley... Well anyone that has been to our house knows that is not possiable cause 1 our living room tv doesnt work and two our couch in the living is always covered in clean clothes that i hate to fold... So he knew she was lieing and meanwhile i was telling matt that he needed to pay attention cause even if nothing was going on people wouldnt believe him cause she is a woman and he is a boy... I then i said Matt all its going to take is for ronnie to be going over to dales to go hunting and see her car... Well thats what happend... SO fast foreward to now and Ronnie and TT are divorced and now Matt and TT are datting YES i said it THEY ARE datting... So after long talks with my dad and thinking on how i would want to be treated i told matt from the beginng after he moved out which was awhile that TT was not welcomed here cause Ronnie has been a long time family friend and i cant do that to him, Of course Matt doesnt understand but respects my wishes, he has lied to everyone that asks if he was datting her till today and I had asked him if he wanted to go to the magical forest and he said yes... OK so later in the day he texted me to say if i go to that thing this weekend with you then TT is going so i texted him back and said I have to talk to david and i will get back to you, so after talking to david and thinking on my own i texted him back and said its ok matt ryan said he would go to take the pictures for me, David and I dont want to be involved with you and TT... Sorry..Then he texted me back and said ok whatever thats fine then if you want to be a snobby thats your choice i guess... I think he forgot to put the bitch in there but i tried to call him after that and he wouldnt answer the phone, so i texted him back and said yes thats my choice and its not cause i am snobby its because i am respecting uncle johns wishes... so he then texted me back and said ok well when everybody comes of thier high horse maybe we will be able to do something, i said well i guess then we wont be doing anything cause i am not on a high horse... So that was it end of conversation... So later like 2 hours later i go to check my myspace out cause i was waitting to see some pictures from a friend and he has posted that he doesnt understand how someone who has done NOTHING with thier life can pass judgement on someone else... So once agian i called him with no answer i texted him and said i hope that message on myspace was not directed towards me... With no answer i took it as it was so i texted him and said Matt if thats how you feel then you need to come get all your stuff from the house cause if you feel that way then you dont need to be around me, and he texted back with K....

that was it i called my dad to make sure that i was not in the wrong and he said no you dont need to have anything to do with her cause we were friends with Ronnie before her and thats where were our loyites remain.... So my feelings are hurt cause i would never think that he would turn his back on family cause of a girl... I am totally blown away and what hers the most is that he said i have done nothing with my life, Who is he to pass judgement on me.. I mean hello you have commited adultry not just with TT but with another woman as well.. I dont feel that anyone has the right to pass judgement ( yes i have passed judgement i am human) but this just hurts!!!! The fact that i was not trying to be on a high horse and have had no problems with him in the past about him comming around without her and now all of a sudden its a big deal and he is willing to throw away family...for a girl that if we look to the furture is very unlikey to be around in a year much less 5 years!!! Blood thicker then water i think not!!!!